using the snapchat text bar to hide bad parts of your photo (i.e. yo face).
When you spend a solid five minutes deciding on the right words to say how pretty she looks. Wow, I forgot how much I want you here.
On Ice - Mercury
i met sasha last night at a party at the standard on sunset. she was really sweet, i asked her for a picture after she took a photo of me. that’s a first.
We went to visit him again today. They told us we could only go in two at a time. By the time we left there was eight of us with him. I think it really made a difference having us all there. It was like being in his room again. He’ll be there for another 24 days maybe. I intend to keep visiting.
I honestly don’t need you checking up on my tumblr after everything that’s gone on recently. I’m exhausted, physically and emotionally, and I will quite plainly and openly dislike you for the foreseeable future if you continue.
Quite a few things have happened in the last two nights. Some things I still don’t know the specifics of. The party was an overwhelming success, so I’m told, but honestly, with this aftermath in what was once called home, I am wondering if it was worth it. I might make a more detailed account, but a certain someone still lurks this tumblr.
I’m having a house party tonight. Or rather, it’s happening at my house. I don’t know what to do at these things, let alone co-host. I’m sure a drink or two will solve that. I’m at a curious stage of my life, right now.
pretty girls make me whimper inside with want and desperation and loneliness when they walk past. an irresistibly attractive trait of mine, I know.
awkward cos I know who sent it and I only just followed them 30 mins ago.
Anonymous asked: you like fried chicken? fucking coon.
lol what even is this.
In-between the ridiculously intermittent broadcasting of American television shows, I’ve been re-watching Game of Thrones (along with The Wire, but that’s for another post). I have a tendency to over-analyse, so I’ll keep this short. Most of the talk has to do with scenes from the first season, but I’ll try and limit references from the second.
Watching the series again, I noticed something about the role Tywin Lannister plays in the lives of both Jaime and Tyrion. I’m not very good with introductions, so I’ll just get right into it.
Tyrion is very accepting of his dwarfism. In the first episode, he openly tells Jon Snow “all dwarfs are bastards in their father’s eyes”, and to “wear it like armour”. He acknowledges that Jaime is his father’s favourite, or, at least, favoured son. Tywin candidly refers to him as the “lowest of the Lannisters” during his scene with Jaime, and Tyrion himself jokingly calls being “the Queen’s brother” his greatest accomplishment, and noting that if he had not been born in a wealthy family, he would likely be left to die. I think growing up in the shadow of his older brother and facing his father’s back definitely had an impact on his character. He’s grown accustomed to turning shame into pride. He’s the kind of person where if someone said to him “You’re only half a man”, he’d smile and say “and yet, I’m still more of a man than you”. I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s actually already said something similar. Even when Jon Snow interrupts him to say that his brother killed the king, he pauses, smiles, and repeats those exact words back to Jon Snow, as if proudly showing that his integrity is unscathed by his comments. His character is such a marvel to watch.
I was watching the finale of season one, and I think the scene between Tywin and Tyrion was a big moment for Tyrion’s character, because it shows Tywin actually acknowledging Tyrion as his son. I haven’t read the books, but I imagine that up until that point in his life, his father never really showed him any compassion or fatherhood(?).
After Tywin tells him the roles and responsibilities he’s bestowing unto him as Hand of the King, Tyrion asks “Why me?”, and I think that shows much of a distance the two of them had up until this point; that it was such an inconcievable and unexpected thought for him to be chosen by his father. He’s grown not expecting much from his father because his very being is considered a failure of his father’s expectations. “Why not anyone?”. Even as his son, he still expects himself to be his father’s last resort.
Tywin recognises that while Tyrion doesn’t have his brother’s swordsmanship, he might’ve been wrong to think him a “stunted fool”, and all those years Tyrion spent sharpening his mind “like a sword needs a wet stone” have actually paid off. Despite this momentary boost to Tyrion’s self esteem, Tywin brings him back down to earth by laying his authority down and telling him not to bring “that whore” to court.
Ironic that the first time Tyrion feels as though his knowledge brings some purpose to his father is spoiled by a memory of his most regrettable act. It’s like Tywin’s way of telling Tyrion that even though he respects his mind, he still doesn’t trust Tyrion to make the same (seemingly) foolish mistake again, effectively completely killing off any pride found in that moment.
Jaime is quite a character. Even when he’s being held hostage, tied to a post, or locked in a cell, he still manages to make the most pompously charismatic and egotistical possible. Not hours after Ned Stark’s death, when Catelyn Stark comes out to him, he disrespects her husband’s death by offering up “his services” at her bedside. Even after being smashed across the face with a rock, his charisma still remains seemingly impenetrable, prompting her to hit him again.
With Jaime and Tywin, I think the scene where Jaime goes to his father after his fight with Ned Stark is the best example. He comes in with his usual suave arrogance, only to be met with “Attacking him is stupid”. You literally hear Jaime breathe as he’s about to speak, right before Tywin, without even looking up from the carcass he’s skinning, says “You want to say something clever? Go on, say something clever”. In fact, throughout almost the whole conversation, Tywin doesn’t even turn away from his task to face his son. It’s like a medieval fantasy version of a father who doesn’t even look up from his newspaper when his son is talking to him. Tywin is so openly dismissive of Jaime’s reputation and is purposefully inconsiderately blunt. “When you hear them whispering ‘King Slayer’ behind your back, doesn’t it bother you?” and “I suppose I should be grateful that your vanity got in the way of your recklessness” (LOL).
In some ways, I think it’s kind of something Tywin passed down on Tyrion’s attitude too. The way he so casually and sarcastically belittles people (“And you. You’re Ned Stark’s bastard, aren’t you?”, or the "How can she slap?" moment when Tyrion tells Joffrey to be sympathetic towards the Starks, knowing full well he’ll be king one day.
Throughout the scene, Jaime is visually at a loss. Unarmed without his witty remarks, he stands like a reprimanded knight being stripped of his honour and title. Even when Jaime tries to turn the tables and show his father as hypocrite by saying “So the Lion does concern himself with the opinions of the sheep?”, Tywin cuts him off before he can even finish his sentence, and does so with such authority that it tells Jaime his words can never be undermined. Not so easily. It does at least provoke a response that required Tywin to half turn towards Jaime.
Similarly with Tyrion’s scene (I’m not sure why I typed Tyrion’s scene first, considering Jaime’s comes first in the narrative), towards the end, Tywin shows a little more compassion towards his son. He commends his son in a way that acknowledges his skill, but not necessarily praises him for it, rather, stating it as fact, and I think that’s important. If he had praised him, Jaime would no doubt have left that tent with a sense of approval and a feeling of achievement, continuing on in his self-inflated decorum. Instead, Tywin states these attributes, only to question what good Jaime’s made of them, and I think that’s his way of forcing Jaime to self-evaluate, so that he leaves that tent less likely to act out of recklessness and vanity, and more likely to make something of himself, to “become the man [he] was always meant to be”, and I think that’s his way of ensuring the Lannister legacy lives on correctly. He’s finally actually facing his son and looking him dead in the eye, holding his head in his hand.
When you look at Jaime’s face at the very end of the scene, his confidence is completely gone. I don’t think any character has left him such a humbled countenance, and I don’t think any other character possibly could. Tyrion is left in much the same state during his scene.
It’s a little harder to link Tywin’s impact on Cersei’s life because unlike her brothers, she’s yet to have a direct conversation with her father in the series. Although, Robert Baratheon noted that she speaks like her father, and I think maybe Tyrion or Jaime or Ned says something similar. It’s also worth noting similarly to her brother’s, she is prideful in the face of shame, wearing the bruise on her face left by Robert as "a badge of honour", unbroken.
It’s a little difficult to tell Tywin’s motives though. In some moments it seems like he wants the best for his children because he genuinely loves them (“They have my son”), while in others, it would appear as though he’s more concerned with maintaining the Lannister heritage (“Every day [Tyrion] remains a prisoner, the less our name commands respect”, “You will not take that whore to court”). Either way, it’ll be interesting to see what happens if/when he dies. He’s really the rock of the Lannister family. The voice of wisdom in a family of dysfunctional super rich kids. I mean, in season two, during the Battle of Blackwater, when Stannis Baratheon is looking as though he’s about to take King’s Landing, who’s the man that comes riding in as their salvation? Tyrion, Jaime and Cersei are all secretly vying for the approval of their father as a measurement of their success, and I think it’d be interesting to watch the power struggle between them without the unification their father brings.
P.S. This is somewhat irrelevant, but when finding the YouTube clip of Joffrey getting Tyrion’s pimp hand threefold, I noticed The Hound’s words. “The prince will remember that, little lord”. It hadn’t really occurred to me, but throughout the season, The Hound has actually been somewhat of an honourable moderator. When Sansa contemplates pushing Joffrey to his death, it’s he who intervenes. When The Mountain almost kills Laros, it’s The Hound who steps in and saves his life. Even when King Robert tells them to “stop this madness”, he immediately falls to his knee in reverence while The Mountain’s swung sword narrowly escapes his head. That single moment really captures his character.
P.P.S. After typing this post, I think Tywin Lannister might be one of my favourite characters. Especially considering his involvement in season two. I’m really gonna enjoy watching them again.
P.P.P.S. I lied about keeping this short. lololol.